Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway.
So it is back to school time!!!!! My school has been back in session for about two weeks. I’m only taking two classes, Prehistory and Archeology (my absolute favorite class ever!) and Intro to Chem. It’s been a LONG two weeks trying to get on a new schedule. I go to work every day of the week from either 5 or 6 am- 10 or 11am. It just depends on the day. Then after work, I go to school. I was going to take an Environment Science class, but it was just too late to sign up for it. They already completed one lab and I’d have to order a lab kit since it was an online class. Has anyone ever had to take an online science class with a lab?? If so, I’d love to know your thoughts on it.
Now I’m going to be completely honest with you, taking only two classes normally bothers me. I feel like I need to take more. Ladies and Gentleman, I am 32 years old. I want to be DONE with school!!! But…………..I had to take a step or two back… which is not easy for me to do since I already feel like I’m so far behind anyway. But I need to make some decisions about the path I want to take.
I met with a school councilor and asked her how much, exactly, do I have of schooling? I’ve been in college since 2004!! I’m tired of it and just want to be done. What she told me was a little disenchanting. I had at the least two years to complete my program, but add another year or more for my bachelors which could even turn into a masters program. I was not anticipating this amount of time. I thought I was a lot closer than this. This news was somewhat of a blow for me. I started freaking out and beating myself up over this change of events. Now here is the good news—-this feeling only lasted a day. I decided that it doesn’t matter!!! I’m going to keep going and live the best possible life everyday, DAMN IT! I’m not going to let this get me down when I have so much to be thankful for. Sure, I would love to be more ahead than what I am. But I’m a firm believer in things happen for a reason. So now I just need to make sure I’m going into the right program. I’m going to take the rest of this year to make sure this is the best option for me and my little family.
The questions I keep asking myself are:
- Should I go into another direction with school and change it up completely?
- What kind of changes do I want to make in this world?
- How can I help and improve myself?
- What are all my options at school? What jobs can I start looking for now to help support this new decision?
Not easy questions, but “If it were easy, everyone would do it”. Thomas says that to me a lot. And I don’t want to be like everyone.