It is freezing outside. I am so ready to get out of this ugly apartment! I hope you all are staying warm. We are having a hard time since we are on the outside of the building. So it get really drafty in here. I really long for the country. I know I’ve said that a million times, but I do. I’m kinda stuck with this apartment because we more than likely will be moving, but not sure when. I just need to get thrifty and focus on the outside world that I’m craving. One fix that I took care of was the noise cancelling- I downloaded nature music. It’s very relaxing. Now it’s just making this apartment and city a temporary home. I guess I need to really dig to find things that can make us happy. But that’s another post at another time.
I received some amazing news from a school councilor who is helping me with figuring out how long until I get my associates via email. If I switched my major to associate of arts (opposed to associate of science) I could graduate by the end of the term. I was ecstatic! This is great news. It’s something that I’ve been working for so long on. And quite honestly, I want something to prove it! I’m 33 years old and finally just getting an associates degree. Ummm……hello! I’d be stupid not to do this……..right?!
I told Thomas as soon as I found out and he pretty much crushed my spirit on this idea. He told me that he didn’t like that idea, because it’s not giving me the degree that I was going for. “But I’ll be getting an actual degree”, I said. “It’ll be something to give me an extra boost in energy in earning my bachelors.”. And then I heard the quote from Treebeard from nowhere, “Don’t be hasty, Master Meriadoc”. I knew both of them were right as heart breaking as it is. It’s not what I was initially after. Just because it’s the easiest route, doesn’t make it the right route for me. But I’m also not just giving up on the idea quite yet. As I stated, this news was through email. And school has been closed for the past two days due to the freezing temperatures. So I plan to be hearing from her hopefully tomorrow with more information: such as if I do get a degree in associate of arts, can I still get my associate of science? and how much longer to get the associate of science?
But I will say, just thinking that I’m closer to getting an associates degree, gives me an encouraging feeling. It’s just something that I have to keep focusing on (not easy) and fight for.
I think that there are lessons in every thing that you do. So what did I learn from this little heart breaker? (1) As Treebeard says, I learned to not be so hasty in my excitement. It’s important to get all the facts first! It’s such a simple concept and this pretty much goes for anything in life. Take the time to get your facts straight. (2) don’t stray from your path. Just because something easier comes along doesn’t mean it’s the right thing for you.
Stay warm everyone!